the game of life

I’m imagining I’m in my crib slobbering and goo-gooing and in comes the one I love to see, and my mouth opens wide squealing and my legs kicking and hearing sounds and seeing lips moving and smiling, and I’m picked up and the lips kiss my forehead and cheeks and the one I love puts me back down into the crib. I feel so very good as I pull myself up bobbing and weaving to stand in my crib unaided for the first time.

Down the road I came to recognize a sound and decided the sound was referring to me. I became me, the name, the ID: the one who will eventually choose and figure. My body is the one seeing, feeling, smelling, etc. Today I’m guessing I’m an arrangement in a powerful brain inside of a body which has mobility, language, and will. The last one is critical and is my specialty, it’s my duty to choose. And starting out it was easy.

I didn’t know where I came from until I was told by a girl in my Sunday-school class that I came out of my mother’s stomach. And I asked my mother and she said so too.

I went to church three times a week with my mother for years and they taught that I had an eternal soul inside of me, and to be safe for all eternity, I had to believe and trust in Jesus to be saved from terrible punishments that would never stop.

So, I believed and trusted. Yet I still wasn’t totally honest all the time, and I treated others as I would like to be treated but not all of the time. I was caught shoplifting a pocketknife when I was twelve. Knives weren’t kept under glass when I was a kid. This episode in my life turned out to be a good thing.

The important thing is I was and am a normal human being. I, like everyone else, have either a constant flow of language going on inside of me, or I have language coming out of me, or I’m paying attention to language sounds coming from my surroundings.

Our desire to continue this constant gathering in and reeling out of language must be the reason why there’s a hugh market for entertainment. It’s a wonderful thing to have the opportunity to relax and hear and see the best ideas and things going and to read what others are recommending. What a relief it is to be entertained. 

As one matures, one eventually and naturally wonders about the answers to questions like Does my life have a purpose? and Why am I here? Unless your mind has been made up for you. Which is usually the case until one starts to think for one’s self.

However, it’s not likely we carry around from birth a purpose to complete, and it’s more likely a purpose can find us by appealing to us and then convinces us. How so? Purpose can’t talk but situations can pull thoughts out of us. For a long time I’ve thought there’s no special purpose for anyone, and circumstances help to make it so. 

Beyond giving our gifts to the world, what is there? Can we give something to ourselves? Can one explore without becoming religious? The spiritual philosophies of the East appear to be the oldest and best. Excluding Hinduism’s many gods, is there anything else besides Buddhism and Zen Buddhism which comes close to the depth of their spiritual insights?

Are Buddhism’s ideas about personal fulfillment or enlightenment valid? Does communing with one’s being plug one into the universe? Can existing without language   for a while each day eventually bring a realization which completes a human being?

Countless sages in the past agree there’s more to life than a life where one’s identity dominates all of the time. This is because of its ancient position of decider and planner. 

A normal type of life is all we can expect when normality is all we want. The search-for-enlightenment meme is one of the oldest memes existing. 

No search is necessary because the sages agree our wonderful and powerful carriage is the key. Commune with it silently and it will take you home.

Desire will prompt an adventurous baby to climb out of its crib to explore. Does language represent a special crib which naturally, without malice corrals the normal life?

We don’t notice the corral because being occupied with language has always been the case. There’s no expectation of anything more after death except an afterlife. Is the belief in a never ending joyous or torturous afterlife the ring in the nose of the followers of most organized religions?

Are we all dreaming and snoring, and this rumble is the breath of identity: the wonderful and powerful tool of language? 

working it out

Is the
key to life
working it out
so when one wakes after sleep, one
usually has something
to do?

Can one miss the chance of that
by chasing after riches?
But what about
if one
is good at
reeling in the riches?

Does every day broadcast a
day-of-all-days feeling
and our receivers
are usually


time (by an amateur)

Does the moment include everything because everything can’t be anywhere else. Both past and future are ideas held in the moment’s grip for there is nowhere else to be.

Does the nowness allow things to exist? Is time the head of the heap? Is it the same time throughout the universe? If matter did not exist, would time exist?

What is it like to slip from one moment to the next? Is time a moving target, and if anything, instead of jumping from one second to another as some timepieces do. Is it like the electric wall-clock’s second hand which moves what seems to be continuously? Maybe not?

Could time be smooth with no wrinkles anywhere to measure? Is time actually ageless and stationary and everywhere and matter moves through this universal size matrix of time and the movement causes normal things to change and age? Do universes get sucked into being by time?

Science says the faster one travels the slower one ages.

Since the earth and its life is traveling very fast through space, does this mean that a person who is 50 years old here on earth would be ,say, 50.0001 of our years old if he or she had lived on a slower moving planet?

Is there anything stationary in the universe? Does the statement “Everything is relative.” mean everything is in motion?

I’m not a regular scientist, but I do love it. I believe science is the best hope for saving all life on earth from us. I’m talking about the essence of science, the sincere search for truth and what it means.

here & now

Is it
that I can’t
escape the present?

Am I stuck without hope
in the here
& now?

have I
experienced all

of what the here &
now has to

more to discover?

What about the affect silence
leaves on the

the present
always engulf the
thoughts of the future as
well as leave a trail of the past?
Do I not move through time and
time moves through me,
aging me as it

the froth of gravity

If you have become uncomfortable believing in magical stories and have started to trust in science and its evidence for what is the case, does this mean you cannot become truly spiritual? No?

This shift is an opportunity to recognize your being, your body, and connect with it. This new type of connection is not a religious belief but the recognition and experience of the greatest and the original: nature, The Universe, which is the source of everything, even all magical stories and the characters in them.

It’s obvious the human body is nature through and through, and are we, the deciders, useful software created by nature? Am I one of the mystery’s dreams, an ID, the creation of a creation? Was I a product of neural networks in my young baby-brain? Am I a utility?

Is all life the froth of gravity?

why on earth

Life is well lived by using sportsmanship because we loose a lot of battles in a normal life. A true sports person is fair and generous when dealing with others on and off of the field, court, or table. This happens by learning how to play, win, and loose graciously.

One improves by playing, when possible, with those who have the same amount of skill or more skill and by continuous learning (practice). And one plays with lesser players when invited which is playing it forward for when he or she was assisted by better players.

Applying what one learns from sportsmanship to life makes one fair and generous as mentioned above which allows one to be relaxed in mind and body. Of course knowing about sportsmanship and practicing it so that it becomes a normal part of one’s life are in different worlds.

Should I be only a traveler between the worlds of knowing and doing? It’s so comfy here between worlds. I don’t have to be consistent here. Why on earth would I switch?

For those who enjoy solving puzzles my answer to the last question is hidden below. Each letter stands for another letter in the alphabet, and each grouping stands for an English word.


LQ   LR   ZPPFJQ  FDK   RF   AK   


springing like a lion

A young student hears the word awry which is not familiar and wonders “What does the word awry mean?”

So, wanting to settle the matter, the enthusiastic student begins to look up awry in a dictionary at a library, and after a long search, is unable to do so.

Discouragement can follow in a situation as this by perhaps thinking “Why did I waste my time?” or “Am I dense?” or “Will I ever be competent as I need to be in English?” But this student wasn’t easily discouraged and thought “I’m going to find out why I can’t find this word awry” and asked the nearest adult “How do you find the word awry in the dictionary?”

The answer came back “It’s better to know how to spell awry before trying to look it up or, if you have the time, you can try to find it by reading through the words in the ar listings.” The student replies “I just did that.”

The adult thinks for a while and says “If you have a set of encyclopedias and can think of a subject where the word will probably be used, you can then look the subject up and read the article to find the word. However, it would be hard to choose a subject which uses the word awry, plus you would have to know what awry means to choose an article to read.”

Then the student, realizing the adult probably couldn’t spell it either and having a full cup of persistence, launched into all the words starting with the letter a and fell asleep about fifteen minutes later and was shaken awake by a stern “No sleeping in the library.” In those days, the English language, without malice, was constantly springing like a lion upon its learners and users. And still does to some extent.

Today we usually find a spelling by typing our best guess into a computer. The lure of money brought spell check software into being. Now it’s better than ever and it’s free and everywhere. Let us poor spellers of the world bow down to the lowly and holy computer and its programmers.

In the early 1980s, Word Finder: The Phonic Key to the Dictionary became a solution to the age-old situation described above while that age of agony was still happening.

To solve the problem, the book used a word’s sound (without its vowels) as an address to find the word, so awry would be found near the top of the R address, cynic under the SNK address along with scenic, snack, sink, sneak, and sneaky, etc.

The few sales of this reference book these days is an example of the way disruptive technology works. Today Word Finder is purchased by unsure spellers as a one-time insurance payment against the power going off. Imagine a poor speller having to write a letter or proposal by hand and wanting to spell every word correctly.

Where are the places or times where analog beats digital? The biggest one is anytime electronic power cannot be used.

Could there ever be such a thing as digital food? Is that what software is? What about digital medicine? Are we already halfway there? Will digital always have to have an analog setting for it to function? 

the mystery

Can the essence and the fundamental feature of the universe be experienced by human beings? Would we if we could? Can something special be discovered behind the barrier of language?

The goal is to be able to let our ego (our choosing and figuring utility) dissolve by stilling language and then to experience in this stillness what we are: a very complex bundle of creativity and awareness which can sense its own being and its belonging to the universe directly.

What would the experience be? Many records exist which describe the experience. The oldest of these records appear in the writings of religious philosophical sages born in India and the far east.

These descriptions attempt to describe the experience of not feeling separate from everything but being a fully participating part of everything along with a feeling of the vastness of the universe which can overwhelm along with the feeling of never being alone again. Knowing we belong will never change because our connection is real and physical. Looking at our bodies and then out into the world and then up at the stars and seeing nothing but our selves is a treat.

We are babes of the universe like all of life and everything else. Is fire for making light? And water for making life? And rocks for walking? And air for breathing? We are perfectly adapted to this earth. Can we make life better for us and our fellow living things? What can influence us?

What is the universe’s essence, its fundamental feature? The sages call it the mystery. They imagine it to be a vast expanse of creativity and awareness which cannot be put into words but can be experienced because we humans are actual parts of it. And they continue…

Experiencing it isn’t easy because we are trapped in a wonderful and powerful language habit. And if this is so, you might ask how does one go about experiencing the mystery?

The sages say to adventure into relaxation by learning how to stop the constant flow of language, and then make it a daily practice, and while practicing, you’ll naturally get better and better at noticing expectations, wishes, regrets, etc. as they come up, and each time thoughts come up, one can thank them for their good intentions and wish them a good but short stay and then travel again the usual way to the stillness within.

into relaxation by
Learning how to stop the constant flow of language &
making it a daily practice &
noticing fully the waves of thoughts &
thanking them for their good intentions &
wishing them a good but short stay &
going again the usual way
to the stillness

The viability of meditation is no longer in question scientifically. Meditation is recommended by psychologists and psychiatrists as a relaxant and an aid to positive thinking.

The affects of meditation are real and are always available and are good for us, and it’s possible for meditation to lead a person to a full dose of completion and meaning. So,…?

the case

Is it that
there’s more,
and it’s not imaginary?

It’s the case, so don’t push
against it. Work
with it.

Is it that there’s more,
and it’s not imaginary?

It’s the case, so don’t push
against it. Work with it.

Is it that there’s more, and it’s not imaginary?
It’s the case, so don’t push against it. Work with it.