the heavy lifting

Should I stop making excuses and stop trying to make others happy?

Am I really a victim and have the desire for others to make me happy and assist me in thinking better thoughts?

Who should be doing the heavy lifting?

Getting outside with nature
and breathing its
fresh air

and not
paying too much
attention to tech by being creative

and thinking mature thoughts about myself.
Having desires and visions
the way
learning how to…just be.

new shakes

If I don’t think of myself
as a victim,
am I?

I could
start to think
I know something and
find myself automatically making
it a belief
thinking nothing
will ever stand up against it.

And I’m back to the stopping blocks
again trying to shed this
new grouping
of words.

Is it that the new shakes awake the old?